20041002
oh damn this fucked up piece of shit life ive got.
two more fucking days and i havnt even studied half of this shit ?
crap school. I HATE STAINT NICHOLAS GIRLS
wht asshole tchrs theyve got there
and im damn pissed , dunt knw why
blowing up at ppl at random and feeling really sad the entire day ?
shits . too much stress maybe .
and on friday some shit of a person pissed me off .
i thought it was pretty funny at first than i felt angry.
ok , heres wht happened ,
i was talking to jess about how stressed i felt , so she started giving me suggestions on how to study better ?
and one of them was to study with my sis
so i said tht my sis wld end up asking me for help on prac all her work and then you knw wht ? the forever-dunt-wna-talk-in-class girl , michelle chris chew finally spoke up ! ass . she was like going , yeah ! my sister also like tht.
excuse me , but was i even talking to her ? i dunt think so . and she was smiling at me like some desperate shit thinking tht we shared the same problem , thus we were friends ? ewww
and she kept looking at wtr jess and the rest of us did , simling at wtr we did funny or whenever we laughed .
fuckit la , no , fuck HER
cant she do her own stuff for once ?
no wonder no one likes her , no wonder shes so hated by the world
then whenever me and jen and jess catches her smiling at wtr we did , we wld look at each other and start laughing .
i knw thts mean , but i really cldnt help it .
it was qt pitiful actlly , no friends . but does she have to suck up to vryone and anyone ?
ok , enough abt her.
im gna fail eoys la , and i dunt care
i mean i DO care , but i dunt feel like caring .
im worried , but i dunt feel like wrying
shit , its a complicated matter , dunt think anyne wld undst .
fuckschool .
school is fulla assholes . except my friends , but thts abt it ?
damnit , ive had enough of school
love comes, love goes,
but a certain feeling never lets me be
somehow, i know,
quite a part of me isn't changed since you've been gone
like a sturdy tree thats sees a thousand seasons
i still shed my leaves in winter
to grow them back in spring
to welcome life again
to welcome you
so goes, my life
still beleive in dreams of having you around
too bad, memories feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be,
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day and live as if
i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel,
so let the pain remain
forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment
spent with you,
i let the pain, bring on the rain
if that's the only way
if there's no other way
to be with you again
too bad memories, feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day
and live as if i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel
so let the pain remain
forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment
spent with you,
i let the pain, bring on the rain
if that's the only way
if there's no other way
to be with you again
so let the pain remain
forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment
spent with you,
i let the pain, bring on the rain
if that's the only way
if there's no other way
to be with you again
I think, you're fine.18:17
